Well it's a bit longer than 4 weeks I'm like a couple of days over what I had anticipated as my 'blog goal' but well I've been busy kinda. I've lost weight again although not that much and I've also well I haven't really done much else so that is why I didn't have a midweek rant this week. So yeah I lost another 100 grams so I'm now 81kg and my BMI is now 25 so I'm basically at normal weight. My goal now is to get my weight to between 75kg-80kg and then keep it at that while slowly progressing my muscle mass.
As you know I'm a Liverpool fan and well I watched that match against Man United. Got up at 1:30am to watch it and well I was left feeling annoyed with how the team played I mean really you are 2-1 down with 10 minutes to go and the tactic is to remain with the slow tempo passing back and fourth while United have 10 men behind the ball. I mean really come on the team lacked imagination. Also on the handshake issue I don't get why it's such a big deal, I mean sure Suarez didn't shake the hand of one Patrice Evra but it really doesn't matter. This happens all the time where players don't shake hands. Why do they have to shake hands before the game anyway, usually you shake hands after the game and then you choose who to shake hands with. I feel Suarez has been singled out in all of this as the bad guy when the way Evra celebrated at the end of the match was bang out of order.
Tomorrow we have a Cricket match tomorrow and I'm really excited. I hope I keep really well and give my school a chance of winning and getting another half day off later this month, our school has only ever won a game once in this competition and that was a couple of years ago and I was also playing in that game. I also hope I get to bat but I probably won't get a bat as we have lots of great batters. Also it's Valentines Day tomorrow and I don't really have any plans except I'm going to wear pink zinc tomorrow for cricket. Might send the woman I love a message as well, but I'm not sure what I'll do. Until next time bye and peace :)
Monday, 13 February 2012
Sunday, 5 February 2012
THIRD WEEK ROUNDUP!!!!
Another week has ended, the third week out of well roughly 50 has just ended. I've had some success with the weight but not really any success with any other part of my life. This will be a rather short entry compared to the rest because well I've already had my rant for the week and nothing much has happened since my mid-week update.
So well I've lost another 100grams not the greatest result ever but it's still a loss. I'm now a solid 81.1kg which is almost 1.5kg off what I started at. Well I can't actually remember what I started at but it was like 82.5kg I think. Almost got myself down into the 'normal weight' range of the BMI Calculator. My situps and things with the weights have started to get smaller as I've been a bit lazy this week. I know it's terrible of me to get lazy as I'll never get what I want by being lazy. Well I might but well I'm more likely to get the female I want by showing initiative and well working off the excess weight and making myself a fine male speciman.
I haven't yet found a new tutor and well finding somebody willing to teach me German will probably be the biggest hurdle in my Quest. But I made the School Cricket team for the 5th consecutive year. Another year where I didn't even need to go to the trials, I just had to well say I wanted to play cricket this year and then I was in. This is because well I'm the only wicketkeeper at the school. I'm looking forward to this season as it will probably be my last season of 'proper' cricket as I can't see myself playing for a club. We have a tournament next Monday so I get the day off school to play cricket. I'm currently trying to find pink zinc so I can wear it when I'm playing. I might even get some pictures of me and my zinc to upload so you guys can see me.
I watched the Superbowl today. I'm a Patriots fan, I can't say I've always been a Patriots fan because well I haven't. I just have a love affair with the city of Boston which means I support all Boston based teams. Sadly today was a pretty shit day for us Pats fans as we lost to fucking Eli and the Giants. Fucking hate the Giants aye. Anyway another week has passed in my Quest and I'm still dedicated to this goal, people told me I'd stop after a couple of weeks. Well I'm about to start week 4 which will basically mean I'll have done a month. Also lessons start tomorrow at school, looking forward to them. Until next time farewell and I hope all my readers stay safe.
Peace :)
So well I've lost another 100grams not the greatest result ever but it's still a loss. I'm now a solid 81.1kg which is almost 1.5kg off what I started at. Well I can't actually remember what I started at but it was like 82.5kg I think. Almost got myself down into the 'normal weight' range of the BMI Calculator. My situps and things with the weights have started to get smaller as I've been a bit lazy this week. I know it's terrible of me to get lazy as I'll never get what I want by being lazy. Well I might but well I'm more likely to get the female I want by showing initiative and well working off the excess weight and making myself a fine male speciman.
I haven't yet found a new tutor and well finding somebody willing to teach me German will probably be the biggest hurdle in my Quest. But I made the School Cricket team for the 5th consecutive year. Another year where I didn't even need to go to the trials, I just had to well say I wanted to play cricket this year and then I was in. This is because well I'm the only wicketkeeper at the school. I'm looking forward to this season as it will probably be my last season of 'proper' cricket as I can't see myself playing for a club. We have a tournament next Monday so I get the day off school to play cricket. I'm currently trying to find pink zinc so I can wear it when I'm playing. I might even get some pictures of me and my zinc to upload so you guys can see me.
I watched the Superbowl today. I'm a Patriots fan, I can't say I've always been a Patriots fan because well I haven't. I just have a love affair with the city of Boston which means I support all Boston based teams. Sadly today was a pretty shit day for us Pats fans as we lost to fucking Eli and the Giants. Fucking hate the Giants aye. Anyway another week has passed in my Quest and I'm still dedicated to this goal, people told me I'd stop after a couple of weeks. Well I'm about to start week 4 which will basically mean I'll have done a month. Also lessons start tomorrow at school, looking forward to them. Until next time farewell and I hope all my readers stay safe.
Peace :)
Wednesday, 1 February 2012
Quest Encounters Major Hurdle
Well so far this week has been utter shit for my Quest and well it's been a crap week of my life. Firstly I had to go back to school which I was kinda looking forward to before I realised that this week would be spent with the rest of the people in my year. Then I had a few complications with my tutor.
You are probably wondering why I'm annoyed at having to spend time with other people in my year. Well as you probably know/have picked up from my blog I'm not really the most sociable person in the world and I don't have a great deal of friends. I don't classify somebody I sit next to in class a friend. That is more of an acquiantance a friend is the people I hang out with during my breaks at school. Anyway enough about my friends, I have to spend this week with the other Year 13s at my school getting 'training' on how to treat the new Year 9s that are coming to our school. This may not sound bad but I only have like 3 friends in my year group. The rest of my friends have either left school, go to different schools or are in the years below. Also the fact that we have to be in our house groups. I do not have any 'friends' in my house group so I have hardly spoken to anybody over the last couple of days at school.
Today we had to sit through a Maori welcoming. Some of you who aren't familiar with a Maori welcome will think this sounds great once I explain what it is. A Maori welcome at our school is basically people doing a Haka (which I think is a war dance) in order to welcome 'visitors' into our 'whare' (house which in this case is our school) Also there is a lot of singing and talking involved. You've read this and are now probably thinking to yourself. Oh this sounds wonderful I wish I could experience. Well here is the catch, you have to sit in a cramped hall which can barely fit 500 people, yet for this day roughly 1500 people are in the hall. You have to sit in it for roughly 90 minutes during that time almost 10 minutes is taken up by speeches in English. The next 80 minutes is taken up by Maori which means for 80 minutes you are sat down not understanding a word that is said. Sure it doesn't sound too bad but considering similar things happen at least 4 times a year (6 times last year :| ) and has been happening for the last 4 years (this will be the 5th year of this for me) it becomes a bit well annoying and pointless. Oh and did I mention when the new kids come to the welcoming they are met by massive Maori males basically scaring the shit out of them. Poor kids are wondering what the fuck they have walked into.
As I said earlier I've had a few problems with my tutor. Basically I've sacked her well not really sacked her just 'broken up' with her. The whole tutoring idea was a big misunderstanding. Mainly on my part. I thought she had agreed to teach me German, while she thought I had agreed to teach her English. I was open to the idea of helping her with her English however when I asked if she'd teach me German in return she said no. So I severed ties immediately and told her I wasn't interested in teaching her English. The thing I don't get is why she wanted me to buy her lunch once a week if I was getting nothing in return. I have no problem with buying her lunch once every now and then because I'm a nice person. But she expected me to buy her lunch so I could tutor her English. Surely it should have been the other way round. I guess this is just another challenge to test my character. See if I can over come things when it gets difficult. I'll find another tutor maybe I'll find a tutor not as attractive who won't distract me with her amazingly good looks.
Also today we had to take the new kids back to our form class to show them well where they have to go in the morning. Luckily for our class we got an International Student as well. Usually I would have been overjoyed at getting an International Student. Even better is the fact she is a fairly attractive German. This sounds brilliant doesn't it, even better I was wearing a Bayern Munich shirt and she came and sat next to me. GET IN THERE CHIP NOW IS YOUR CHANCE. No :| I think I have changed as a person I talked to her for a bit before turning my attention elsewhere telling her I had to go and walking to the other side of the class to sit by myself. Usually I would have been all over that chance to talk to an attractive female. But I've realised in my life what I want and it isn't any female it's a certain female. A special female one who I want to spend my life with and one that I want to be there for, no matter what the circumstances are. I want to be there for her, I want to tell her how beautiful she is everyday and I want to make her feel special. Treat her how she should be treated. She'll be my Queen and well I'll be her servant. ♥
You are probably wondering why I'm annoyed at having to spend time with other people in my year. Well as you probably know/have picked up from my blog I'm not really the most sociable person in the world and I don't have a great deal of friends. I don't classify somebody I sit next to in class a friend. That is more of an acquiantance a friend is the people I hang out with during my breaks at school. Anyway enough about my friends, I have to spend this week with the other Year 13s at my school getting 'training' on how to treat the new Year 9s that are coming to our school. This may not sound bad but I only have like 3 friends in my year group. The rest of my friends have either left school, go to different schools or are in the years below. Also the fact that we have to be in our house groups. I do not have any 'friends' in my house group so I have hardly spoken to anybody over the last couple of days at school.
Today we had to sit through a Maori welcoming. Some of you who aren't familiar with a Maori welcome will think this sounds great once I explain what it is. A Maori welcome at our school is basically people doing a Haka (which I think is a war dance) in order to welcome 'visitors' into our 'whare' (house which in this case is our school) Also there is a lot of singing and talking involved. You've read this and are now probably thinking to yourself. Oh this sounds wonderful I wish I could experience. Well here is the catch, you have to sit in a cramped hall which can barely fit 500 people, yet for this day roughly 1500 people are in the hall. You have to sit in it for roughly 90 minutes during that time almost 10 minutes is taken up by speeches in English. The next 80 minutes is taken up by Maori which means for 80 minutes you are sat down not understanding a word that is said. Sure it doesn't sound too bad but considering similar things happen at least 4 times a year (6 times last year :| ) and has been happening for the last 4 years (this will be the 5th year of this for me) it becomes a bit well annoying and pointless. Oh and did I mention when the new kids come to the welcoming they are met by massive Maori males basically scaring the shit out of them. Poor kids are wondering what the fuck they have walked into.
As I said earlier I've had a few problems with my tutor. Basically I've sacked her well not really sacked her just 'broken up' with her. The whole tutoring idea was a big misunderstanding. Mainly on my part. I thought she had agreed to teach me German, while she thought I had agreed to teach her English. I was open to the idea of helping her with her English however when I asked if she'd teach me German in return she said no. So I severed ties immediately and told her I wasn't interested in teaching her English. The thing I don't get is why she wanted me to buy her lunch once a week if I was getting nothing in return. I have no problem with buying her lunch once every now and then because I'm a nice person. But she expected me to buy her lunch so I could tutor her English. Surely it should have been the other way round. I guess this is just another challenge to test my character. See if I can over come things when it gets difficult. I'll find another tutor maybe I'll find a tutor not as attractive who won't distract me with her amazingly good looks.
Also today we had to take the new kids back to our form class to show them well where they have to go in the morning. Luckily for our class we got an International Student as well. Usually I would have been overjoyed at getting an International Student. Even better is the fact she is a fairly attractive German. This sounds brilliant doesn't it, even better I was wearing a Bayern Munich shirt and she came and sat next to me. GET IN THERE CHIP NOW IS YOUR CHANCE. No :| I think I have changed as a person I talked to her for a bit before turning my attention elsewhere telling her I had to go and walking to the other side of the class to sit by myself. Usually I would have been all over that chance to talk to an attractive female. But I've realised in my life what I want and it isn't any female it's a certain female. A special female one who I want to spend my life with and one that I want to be there for, no matter what the circumstances are. I want to be there for her, I want to tell her how beautiful she is everyday and I want to make her feel special. Treat her how she should be treated. She'll be my Queen and well I'll be her servant. ♥
Sunday, 29 January 2012
SECOND WEEK ROUNDUP!!
Hello everybody!!!!
So here we are the end of another week. An end to another fairly good week on the fitness front but on the learning a new language a rather poor week. So lets get down to what has happened over the last week in the life of Chip!!!
Well as I said earlier I've had a fairly good week on the fitness front. I lost another 300 grams. Which takes me to a weight of 81.2kg. My BMI is now only 25.06 which is quite good since I have brought it down roughly 0.50 in just two weeks. Also I'm beginning to notice a difference in my build. I am starting to see what appears to be a six pack and my arms are looking bigger and are harder. I'm also finding it alot easier to say no when I'm offered chocolate and when I go into a dairy I'm coming out with a bottle of water rather than an overpriced sugary drink. I'm drinking lots of water everyday like 3 bottles maybe and well I feel really good!!
Now onto the difficulties I'm having with my tutor. As I said in an earlier post she is extremely attractive which isn't necessarily a bad thing but it isn't the best thing when I'm trying to learn German to impress a different female. Well we go back to school next week and my tutor told me she needed 'a week of rest before school'. So it seems my tutor isn't very motivated when it comes to teacher. Also she doesn't really want bakery food for lunch she would rather have sushi which is really good, as I really like sushi. I may have to consider getting a new tutor but I'm not sure as this one is a really nice and super awesome person.
So as you would have known if you read my previous blog about mindfucks. My cousin is down in Auckland so I've spent a bit of time with her over the last week despite the fact I can only stand her for roughly an hour before I feel like picking her up and chucking her off a building. Fuck I hate 8 year olds, they are so fucking annoying. Also I've been watching lots of the Australian Open. Tennis is a lovely sport to watch when you can get past all the screaming when females hit the ball and some men also feel the need to scream. If a female can scream as loud as Sharapova when she hits the ball, I'd hate to hear her when she orgasms......
Lastly I have a things I need to say. Go Liverpool great work beating BOTH Manchester clubs this week. Into the final of the Carling Cup and possibly an FA Cup Final. I get a day off school when they make a final so I'm looking forward to the day off for the Carling Cup Final. Also Congrats to Vika for winning the Aussie Open and lastly well done to the Blackcaps for not being total shit cunts against Zimbabwe!!!
peace :P
So here we are the end of another week. An end to another fairly good week on the fitness front but on the learning a new language a rather poor week. So lets get down to what has happened over the last week in the life of Chip!!!
Well as I said earlier I've had a fairly good week on the fitness front. I lost another 300 grams. Which takes me to a weight of 81.2kg. My BMI is now only 25.06 which is quite good since I have brought it down roughly 0.50 in just two weeks. Also I'm beginning to notice a difference in my build. I am starting to see what appears to be a six pack and my arms are looking bigger and are harder. I'm also finding it alot easier to say no when I'm offered chocolate and when I go into a dairy I'm coming out with a bottle of water rather than an overpriced sugary drink. I'm drinking lots of water everyday like 3 bottles maybe and well I feel really good!!
Now onto the difficulties I'm having with my tutor. As I said in an earlier post she is extremely attractive which isn't necessarily a bad thing but it isn't the best thing when I'm trying to learn German to impress a different female. Well we go back to school next week and my tutor told me she needed 'a week of rest before school'. So it seems my tutor isn't very motivated when it comes to teacher. Also she doesn't really want bakery food for lunch she would rather have sushi which is really good, as I really like sushi. I may have to consider getting a new tutor but I'm not sure as this one is a really nice and super awesome person.
So as you would have known if you read my previous blog about mindfucks. My cousin is down in Auckland so I've spent a bit of time with her over the last week despite the fact I can only stand her for roughly an hour before I feel like picking her up and chucking her off a building. Fuck I hate 8 year olds, they are so fucking annoying. Also I've been watching lots of the Australian Open. Tennis is a lovely sport to watch when you can get past all the screaming when females hit the ball and some men also feel the need to scream. If a female can scream as loud as Sharapova when she hits the ball, I'd hate to hear her when she orgasms......
Lastly I have a things I need to say. Go Liverpool great work beating BOTH Manchester clubs this week. Into the final of the Carling Cup and possibly an FA Cup Final. I get a day off school when they make a final so I'm looking forward to the day off for the Carling Cup Final. Also Congrats to Vika for winning the Aussie Open and lastly well done to the Blackcaps for not being total shit cunts against Zimbabwe!!!
peace :P
Thursday, 26 January 2012
Life is a Mindfuck
My life is just one massive mindfuck. So yeah I've got school starting soon and I got my timetable and shit. So I was talking with a few of my friends on facebook asking them what subjects and shit they had. Turns out most of my friends have same study time and I have loads of subjects with my friends which is good. But this also led me to realise my life is a massive mindfuck. "How can your life be a massive mindfuck Chip." Well thanks for asking, I'll explain how my life is a mindfuck during this post.
Firstly my best friend right she is called Julia. Well my best friend who is female. My best friend is actually called Dylan. But my best female friend is called Julia. She's awesome, one of the nicest people I know. She always has time to listen to me and well I love her. Not in the way of wanting to engage in sexual intercourse with her but I love her like a sister. Her boyfriend is really awesome as well. I see him loads and he gave me a ride in his car once when it was raining. Cheers Alex mate :) Anyway well my Aunty who is a bitch to me and I had a massive rage at her swore at her and anything. Well her name is Julie which is kind of a coincidence, odd thing is they look slightly similar. Want another mind-fuck. Well the last female I liked is called Julie.
So you are thinking and so what the names are similar not really a mindfuck. This is where shit gets interesting. So yeah Julie (the girl I liked) well she wasn't really the last girl I liked. The last girl I liked will be called Mf for now. Some of you know how that went, well I bought her Perfume and Chocolate as a gift. Went all out for her while I was overseas spent nearly $100 AUS on her and she left before I could give it to her. Well Julie was German. Now this is where the mindfuck comes. The last 5 females I've liked (if you include my tutor and my current crush) have all been German. So yes I think I have an attraction to the German race. Now you will probably be laughing your arse off thinking of all the jokes you can make about German people.
So yes that was a mindfuck of sorts. But the biggest and I mean biggest mindfuck of all will be saved for another day. Another post perhaps or maybe I won't tell you at all. Anyway as some of you know I'm not really a sociable person and well I had a massive rage at my Aunty today. Now my Aunty is an alcoholic and well I think she's probably a drug addict. She's been into rehab a couple of times and it doesn't really work. Well my cousin isn't allowed to see her unless they are supervised so they've come down to Auckland for a couple of weeks to invade my Grandmothers house and to invade my life. Now I love my cousin never have problems with her and I love my Aunty but she aggravates me so much. Well today I snapped and started swearing at my Aunty telling her what I thought of her and about how much stress she causes the family. To come to conclusions I don't think I'll be seeing her for a good few months.
Now I've had a lot of people telling me to give up with my quest and that I have basically no chance of pulling this off. Also I've had a few people telling me how to live this final year of my school life. To those of you who are telling what how to live this year, thanks the support I'm getting is really helpful. It's making me more motivated than ever to prove you all wrong. I've also been listening to the Red Hot Chili Peppers new album entitled I'm With You. It's a great album and you should all listen to it. Also a shoutout to ma boi Lukic. Love ya bro xx :D
Peace :)
Firstly my best friend right she is called Julia. Well my best friend who is female. My best friend is actually called Dylan. But my best female friend is called Julia. She's awesome, one of the nicest people I know. She always has time to listen to me and well I love her. Not in the way of wanting to engage in sexual intercourse with her but I love her like a sister. Her boyfriend is really awesome as well. I see him loads and he gave me a ride in his car once when it was raining. Cheers Alex mate :) Anyway well my Aunty who is a bitch to me and I had a massive rage at her swore at her and anything. Well her name is Julie which is kind of a coincidence, odd thing is they look slightly similar. Want another mind-fuck. Well the last female I liked is called Julie.
So you are thinking and so what the names are similar not really a mindfuck. This is where shit gets interesting. So yeah Julie (the girl I liked) well she wasn't really the last girl I liked. The last girl I liked will be called Mf for now. Some of you know how that went, well I bought her Perfume and Chocolate as a gift. Went all out for her while I was overseas spent nearly $100 AUS on her and she left before I could give it to her. Well Julie was German. Now this is where the mindfuck comes. The last 5 females I've liked (if you include my tutor and my current crush) have all been German. So yes I think I have an attraction to the German race. Now you will probably be laughing your arse off thinking of all the jokes you can make about German people.
So yes that was a mindfuck of sorts. But the biggest and I mean biggest mindfuck of all will be saved for another day. Another post perhaps or maybe I won't tell you at all. Anyway as some of you know I'm not really a sociable person and well I had a massive rage at my Aunty today. Now my Aunty is an alcoholic and well I think she's probably a drug addict. She's been into rehab a couple of times and it doesn't really work. Well my cousin isn't allowed to see her unless they are supervised so they've come down to Auckland for a couple of weeks to invade my Grandmothers house and to invade my life. Now I love my cousin never have problems with her and I love my Aunty but she aggravates me so much. Well today I snapped and started swearing at my Aunty telling her what I thought of her and about how much stress she causes the family. To come to conclusions I don't think I'll be seeing her for a good few months.
Now I've had a lot of people telling me to give up with my quest and that I have basically no chance of pulling this off. Also I've had a few people telling me how to live this final year of my school life. To those of you who are telling what how to live this year, thanks the support I'm getting is really helpful. It's making me more motivated than ever to prove you all wrong. I've also been listening to the Red Hot Chili Peppers new album entitled I'm With You. It's a great album and you should all listen to it. Also a shoutout to ma boi Lukic. Love ya bro xx :D
Peace :)
Saturday, 21 January 2012
FIRST WEEK ROUNDUP
Well I've done a full week of my new lifestyle. I realise that my first post on here wasn't a few days ago but I started my Quest last Saturday. I won't always however update the blog on Saturday and sometimes may wait until Sunday or even Monday to update. Well yeah I'm sure you're all interested in how I've gone this week and if I've had any change in well anything in my life.
So as you know I'm trying to lose weight, some people have told me that I shouldn't really be looking to lose weight because I'm an ideal weight for gaining muscle but well I want to lose the weight as my BMI says I'm overweight. But after some changes in my lifestyle I've lost 900 grams this week!!! Which is basically 1KG. So now my BMI is only 25.15, which means I am only 0.16 overweight. Another good week next week and I'll be into the normal weight BMI.
Also I'm trying to learn German, but I've had some problems with my tutor. I haven't been able to contact her as she has been away with her host family. Which is kind of annoying, also I have a problem with her being a very very very attractive female. The problem with this is the fact that I'm trying to stay away from females as to not be tied down next year. Although my tutor leaves to go back to Germany in June/July so if something was to happen it wouldn't be too bad.
I think I have changed as a person since I fell 'in love' as I now have a different outlook on life. Before I used to be anxious about the future and have negative thoughts about what might happen to me. Now I'm happy and excited about what the future holds for me. I go back to school in about 10 days and I'm really looking forward to it. I can't wait to be back in the place I enjoy, I like going to school and seeing people I know. I like the environment, sure I don't like all the subjects and I get fed up of it at times. But school isn't that bad and I really like it.
Next week I don't really have any aims in mind, I'd love to lose at least another 300 grams and kick on with my muscle building. I'd also like to get that first lesson of German done with my tutor and see if we have anything in common. I just really want to enjoy my last days on holiday, my last days of no routine and doing whatever I really want. I'm 1 week down with many more to go and at the moment. I'm loving every minute of it.
Peace :)
So as you know I'm trying to lose weight, some people have told me that I shouldn't really be looking to lose weight because I'm an ideal weight for gaining muscle but well I want to lose the weight as my BMI says I'm overweight. But after some changes in my lifestyle I've lost 900 grams this week!!! Which is basically 1KG. So now my BMI is only 25.15, which means I am only 0.16 overweight. Another good week next week and I'll be into the normal weight BMI.
Also I'm trying to learn German, but I've had some problems with my tutor. I haven't been able to contact her as she has been away with her host family. Which is kind of annoying, also I have a problem with her being a very very very attractive female. The problem with this is the fact that I'm trying to stay away from females as to not be tied down next year. Although my tutor leaves to go back to Germany in June/July so if something was to happen it wouldn't be too bad.
I think I have changed as a person since I fell 'in love' as I now have a different outlook on life. Before I used to be anxious about the future and have negative thoughts about what might happen to me. Now I'm happy and excited about what the future holds for me. I go back to school in about 10 days and I'm really looking forward to it. I can't wait to be back in the place I enjoy, I like going to school and seeing people I know. I like the environment, sure I don't like all the subjects and I get fed up of it at times. But school isn't that bad and I really like it.
Next week I don't really have any aims in mind, I'd love to lose at least another 300 grams and kick on with my muscle building. I'd also like to get that first lesson of German done with my tutor and see if we have anything in common. I just really want to enjoy my last days on holiday, my last days of no routine and doing whatever I really want. I'm 1 week down with many more to go and at the moment. I'm loving every minute of it.
Peace :)
Thursday, 19 January 2012
Day At The Races
Hey everybody, tonight I went to the races and collected roughly $50 in winnings which is exceptionally good considering I started off with $8. I don't read any of those form guides that the 'pundits' have made telling you the 'best' horses to pick. I just went from the heart and picked horses based on the names. I chose names relating to my feelings and my biggest winner was a horse who had the same name as the female I have strong feelings for. It was one of those moments where you just have a gut instinct that this is the right horse and well it all worked out.
I've done a lot of thinking over the last couple of days about if what I'm doing is right. I keep thinking of all the negatives and not the positives which could come from this. What if I'm wasting a year of my life, a year which according to many other students who have finished school is the greatest year at school. I'm sacrificing most of my social life for this female, what if she rejects me. Will I be able to continue with my life if I get rejected after all the work I will have put into it?
I think I'll be able to overcome rejection, well I hope I can. I'm quite a shy person in real life and that is probably why I'm not really a normal person. Most normal males my age are really only on the lookout for the nearest 'pussy' they can get or their next 'fuck'. But not me, I prefer to think thoughts over in my mind and calculate all pros and cons of any venture into my love life. I like to have everything organised in my life, this is really why I'm writing a blog. Mainly so I can keep all my thoughts organised over this period in my life and then look back over it in a year and realise where I went wrong.
This blog isn't just about my life, it's about everybody. It's a story for us all to look at and relate to in our own lives. I hope that if you read this despite your opinions on my quest you get something out of it. Maybe a message about what not to do with your life or hopefully it inspires you to follow your heart. Sure it might not work and you'll feel like a complete idiot. But maybe you'll learn something about yourself, about what you are capable of. Everybody is special and unique. We can all do amazing things if we just put our minds to it. So follow your heart and don't let anybody tell you, that you are 'unable' to do something. Because you can do it. I believe in you and I hope you all believe in me.
Peace :)
I've done a lot of thinking over the last couple of days about if what I'm doing is right. I keep thinking of all the negatives and not the positives which could come from this. What if I'm wasting a year of my life, a year which according to many other students who have finished school is the greatest year at school. I'm sacrificing most of my social life for this female, what if she rejects me. Will I be able to continue with my life if I get rejected after all the work I will have put into it?
I think I'll be able to overcome rejection, well I hope I can. I'm quite a shy person in real life and that is probably why I'm not really a normal person. Most normal males my age are really only on the lookout for the nearest 'pussy' they can get or their next 'fuck'. But not me, I prefer to think thoughts over in my mind and calculate all pros and cons of any venture into my love life. I like to have everything organised in my life, this is really why I'm writing a blog. Mainly so I can keep all my thoughts organised over this period in my life and then look back over it in a year and realise where I went wrong.
This blog isn't just about my life, it's about everybody. It's a story for us all to look at and relate to in our own lives. I hope that if you read this despite your opinions on my quest you get something out of it. Maybe a message about what not to do with your life or hopefully it inspires you to follow your heart. Sure it might not work and you'll feel like a complete idiot. But maybe you'll learn something about yourself, about what you are capable of. Everybody is special and unique. We can all do amazing things if we just put our minds to it. So follow your heart and don't let anybody tell you, that you are 'unable' to do something. Because you can do it. I believe in you and I hope you all believe in me.
Peace :)
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